Sometime my heart hurts. Sometimes I feel lonely.
I pray for a husband.
Not just any husband, I pray for a loving, caring, Godly man.
I pray that he loves me with all of his heart and puts me first, after God.
I pray that he is handsome and has a wonderful personality.
I pray that he makes me laugh hysterically and smile constantly.
I pray that he loves spending time with me but needs time to himself, too.
I pray that he is a hard worker.
I pray that when he sees me walk down the aisle toward him, he smiles uncontrollably.
I pray that he wants lots of little feet running around.
I pray that he wants to be a father as badly as I want to be a mother.
I pray that his family will mean everything to him.
I pray that we will spend our weekends at ball fields and dance recitals.
I pray that we will spend our summers at the beach, running in the sand.
I pray that we raise our children together and work hard to have a strong family.
I pray that one day we will be proud grandparents.
I pray that when we get old, we sit on our back porch in rocking chairs, together.
I don't just want a husband, I want a partner. I want someone to hold my hand and a shoulder to cry on. I want someone who I feel safe with.
Lately, my heart has been heavy because I feel like this is never going to happen to me. I feel like this are happening to everyone I know, except for me. I feel like time is passing me by.
I have decided to put this all in God's hands. I do not know my future, He does. He has a plan for me that I do not know of.
Why is so hard to let go and tell God to take control?
I am going to work on patience and work on trusting God with this journey of my life.
Do you feel this way? Do you find it hard to trust God? Am I the only who feels like their life is not going as planned?
Tasha
